God I’m so fucking lame
I just moved to an awesome city and have amazing roommates who threw me this kick ass house show/ party to welcome me back to town tonight. But it’s 2 am and I am so tapped out. I can’t be social anymore. All day I’ve just wanted to hide. But I tried to push myself. Great things only happen outside of our comfort zone right? I mean I even played a solo set at the beginning the night, talk about outside of my comfort zone. There are still like 50 people at my house and I’m in my room, under my comforter snuggled up ready for bed. Hiding. One drunk guy said I only wanted to go to bed because I was bored. And it rang true. But is the boredom from their lack of awesome or my lack of receptiveness? I def think it’s the latter of the two. Fuck you social anxiety. This party is for me and Im so uncomfortable* I can’t even say hi to anyone.
*no one has done anything to make me feel uncomfortable other than simply exist. They are actually all really rad, intelligent, unique individuals.